… and in many ways, it feels like nothing much has changed.

I’ve stopped working at the law firm for various reasons, and I don’t see myself going back to it for some time. The feeling is strange, especially since I spent the better half of 2006 there, and I’ve become very attached to it, yet it was so easy to leave so I’m not exactly sure what my reaction ought to be.

So in a way, it feels like I’ve simply lost 6 months of my life, and am only now returning to life after stepping down from my position as President of CSA. Not that I’m complaining… this new lease on life is a welcome respite from all the pressures and expectations I previously experienced. Yet, because of the lack of responsibility, I’ve since taken up more in the parish… setting myself up for lots of challenges that I only hope I can live up to.

It’s all too easy to allow myself to make the same mistakes, talk the talk but not walk the walk. In many ways I need a true prayer community that can hold me accountable and keep me in the straight and narrow path. Too often, though, it’s these same prayer communities that I avoid, or that I’m called to support, rather than find support.

My resolution this year is to trust. I fear I’m not trustworthy enough to be able to trust others.